Quarantine Feels
Hey everyone! It has been a month and a few days of quarantine. It's safe to say I'm going insane. So far in this month alone, I have found God again, temporarily dyed my hair purple, moved all of the furniture in my room around, fell in love with Timothée Chalamet, and have lost my mind. It's been so hard to stay inside and find things to do. Saying I'm bored would be an understatement. I have run out of things to do and it's making me believe I should cut bangs. Should I?
Coronavirus has taken a lot from me. My ability to see my friends, going out to eat, and my senior year. Selfishly, I feel as though I didn't get the ending I deserved. It feels like this chapter is left unwritten, and it's not fair. Twelve years of sitting in classrooms and learning countless amounts of random information for what? Virtual graduation? This is not how I wanted my senior year to go.
I'm going to be honest, the main two emotions I feel towards this pandemic are anger and sadness. I know my fellow seniors feel similarly. We never even got to experience the exciting parts of senior year. There isn't going to be a senior year prom. No bring your dog to school day. No senior skip day. There's nothing to look forward to about school anymore. All the fun was snatched away before it even began.
Online school is terrible, but props to the teachers who are trying to make it enjoyable. I used to get excited to wake up for school, sometimes even putting on makeup. Now, I just sit up in bed and go to class in my pajamas. No, I don't always brush my hair. It doesn't seem like a priority to look good anymore.
I'm making it a goal now to be productive. If I give myself something to do, then I don't focus on the fact that quarantine is the worst thing ever. I need to clean my room, so we'll do that first. Then I'll reorganize my bathroom. It'll keep me busy for a while. However, we don't know how long I'll need to keep myself busy.
When I see people hanging out with their friends I get angry. I'm not talking about car visits, six feet apart is perfectly okay. I'm talking about the people who post pictures of them with groups of friends, inside their houses. Hanging out like that will only prolong quarantine and I don't know about you but I want my last summer at home. I've already lost my senior year, don't take that from me too.
This whole post seems pretty selfish. I recognize that. However, it's been hard to keep this inside as I have been forcing myself to smile through this. It's getting harder and harder to do that every day. During this time, I'm trying to turn to God but it's difficult. I'm very angry, heartbroken, and frustrated. Those aren't exactly the ideal emotions to be feeling, but there's not really any way to be happy about this.
I hope everyone else is doing okay and staying safe. Stay at home and if you do go out, stay six feet apart! Right now we need to do all we can to get the world back to normal. Do your part! Practice social distancing! Remember that even though this time is frightening, you're loved and if you cut your hair due to a quarantine break down, your hair will grow back.
Coronavirus has taken a lot from me. My ability to see my friends, going out to eat, and my senior year. Selfishly, I feel as though I didn't get the ending I deserved. It feels like this chapter is left unwritten, and it's not fair. Twelve years of sitting in classrooms and learning countless amounts of random information for what? Virtual graduation? This is not how I wanted my senior year to go.
I'm going to be honest, the main two emotions I feel towards this pandemic are anger and sadness. I know my fellow seniors feel similarly. We never even got to experience the exciting parts of senior year. There isn't going to be a senior year prom. No bring your dog to school day. No senior skip day. There's nothing to look forward to about school anymore. All the fun was snatched away before it even began.
Online school is terrible, but props to the teachers who are trying to make it enjoyable. I used to get excited to wake up for school, sometimes even putting on makeup. Now, I just sit up in bed and go to class in my pajamas. No, I don't always brush my hair. It doesn't seem like a priority to look good anymore.
I'm making it a goal now to be productive. If I give myself something to do, then I don't focus on the fact that quarantine is the worst thing ever. I need to clean my room, so we'll do that first. Then I'll reorganize my bathroom. It'll keep me busy for a while. However, we don't know how long I'll need to keep myself busy.
When I see people hanging out with their friends I get angry. I'm not talking about car visits, six feet apart is perfectly okay. I'm talking about the people who post pictures of them with groups of friends, inside their houses. Hanging out like that will only prolong quarantine and I don't know about you but I want my last summer at home. I've already lost my senior year, don't take that from me too.
This whole post seems pretty selfish. I recognize that. However, it's been hard to keep this inside as I have been forcing myself to smile through this. It's getting harder and harder to do that every day. During this time, I'm trying to turn to God but it's difficult. I'm very angry, heartbroken, and frustrated. Those aren't exactly the ideal emotions to be feeling, but there's not really any way to be happy about this.
I hope everyone else is doing okay and staying safe. Stay at home and if you do go out, stay six feet apart! Right now we need to do all we can to get the world back to normal. Do your part! Practice social distancing! Remember that even though this time is frightening, you're loved and if you cut your hair due to a quarantine break down, your hair will grow back.
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| If you're looking for something to do, try it! |
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| During this time, I've tried creating new hobbies. |
I’m so sorry that your senior year has ended early. But I am sure you will make many more memories that are just as good!
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